I find it so hard to believe that it has been almost 6 months since I have written a post. It was such an important part of my life before and following my surgery. It is not that I didn’t want to post; it was more that I could not find the time. I have had to learn how to juggle classes, two jobs and an increasingly busy social life.
There has been an enormous amount of personal growth during this journey and a realization that the journey is an ongoing process. I was recently compared to a caterpillar morphing into a butterfly with every day breaking with a beautiful new dawn. The total weight loss to date is 151.8 lbs. and a current weight of 243.0 lbs. and I feel great. I have reached a little plateau and have as of this week changed things up a little trying to push over the plateau
I have been ask several times recently to start writing post again and to catch everyone up. Try to keep up, this is going to be a busy reveal…….with lots of pictures too.
I celebrated my birthday with friends and JP at a Rangers Game, sadly we didn’t win and it was the last game I attended for the 2013 season. It was the first time I was able to see Darvish pitch, unfortunately he was injured and was not on the mound very long. I am ready for the 2014 season, I am hoping to beat my 5 game attendance that I set last year. So far I have solid plans to attend a game in June.
I started the second job and considering it is a different type of nursing I was surprised to learn how it could be so enjoyable. It has exposed me to an entirely different idea of nursing and I have actually considered new possibilities.
There was not one but two 5K’s walked in September, the first was a color run in Decatur. It was tough but I had great friends that took every single step with me. I was so excited that I finished, I walked my first 5K and then went on to work my first over night shift that night.
The following Saturday we walked in the Zombie 5K, we made tutu’s to wear and made our way past the zombie’s in the woods. It was so much fun!
In october I took a walk on the wild side and had my nose pierced! It is something I have always wanted to do but I was afraid of what others would think. This weight loss has changed a lot more than my size. I am essentially the same person. I just kept the real me hidden away from the rest of the world. Now I embrace her, I love her. Probably for the first time in my life I honestly love myself. I have confidence without arrogance and enjoy new challenges. I even appreciate and look forward to change.
During October I also gave up my iPhone and began using a Samsung Galaxy S4. I will be switching back to iPhone as quickly as possible for many reasons. I guess I have been an Apple too long to make a change, it has been 7 months with the new phone and I still can not do the things I can with the iPhone.
I went shopping to buy clothes for a reception and for a concert coming up in November. I decided on a sweater dress with leggings. I had a great time shopping and a wonderful time at the reception. I did not sit off by myself, instead I moved around the room and talked to many people I had never met. I had a great time and not once did I think of making a retreat.
The girls and I went to a David Nail concert at Billy Bob’s, the first concert I have gone to since I was 17! We had front table seats, too close to the speakers but we all enjoyed being that close to the stage. I can see this being a regular event.
As many of you know November brought the worst ice storm we have had in this area for as long as anyone can remember. I was stuck at the house for 5 days. So the ice storm and the Thanksgiving holiday came and went. It was time to decorate for Christmas and begin the holiday shopping.
I found the perfect gift for Mary this Christmas. I bought tickets for us to go see Scotty McCreery on February 15th.
There were finals and the holidays and the best Christmas I have had in years. JP stayed with me the last week of December and we celebrated with presents and movies. We discovered a new favorite in “Perks of being a wall flower” , if you haven’t seen it you should check it out. Jordan and Collin stayed one night with us on their way to a mission trip in Africa.
2013 ended without too much fan fare. It held so many changes for me it seemed there should be more celebration but for me, just hanging out at home watching movies with JP is a great way to end the year.
This morning as I drove to work I started thinking about how busy I have been lately. It seems I am always doing something. Sometimes by myself but more often lately with friends. If I am honest I have to admit the part that is new is not the friends, they have always been there. The new part is I am saying yes to doing things. I have spent the past several years making excuses and avoiding doing things with friends. I longed to say yes but I was so uncomfortable in my own skin. Things have really changed for me.
Yesterdays workout allowed me to achieve the soreness Shemane insist on. I look forward to tomorrow’s workout, she has really been mixing things up. I did not make it to the gym during lunch yesterday due to an assessment followed by a prior commitment. I am going to give it another try tomorrow, having my workout at lunch would be perfect.
I have officially submitted my first homework assignment for this semester. I have three others do before the end of the weekend. I love jumping right in, I do have to have some organization and plan the order of my assignments. I get a little freaky about merging all of the scheduled assignments so I can look at one list and know what is next.
Tomorrow is Friday and at the end of the work day will kick off a holiday weekend. This holiday I am not on-call so I will be spending it doing homework Saturday and on Sunday I will be working my first training shift at my new PRN job. Monday will be my day of getting ready for the following week. I have a busy week following the holiday.
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This is probably the most difficult post I have had to write but I committed to full disclosure and I am sticking to my word. My new weight this week is 282.4 lb. with a total loss of 112.4 lb. which means I actually had a 1.5 lb. gain.
The rational side of my brain understands that I should not just look at the numbers on the scale but also consider how things fit and how I feel. It is just difficult to be a rational when I see the number going up instead of down. I know this is expected on occasion due to increasing the weights I am lifting during my workout. I have also not increased my cardio as regularly as I should have and I am having trouble with constipation; both of these can effect the numbers.
I have spent the biggest part of the day beating myself up, analyzing where I went wrong and making a plan to change it. It is just what I do. I must have a plan of action. So, I have increased my fiber with Fiber Advance Gummies, I am making an honest effort to meet my cardio goals, I will be starting the aquatic boot camp next week.
Picture day is coming up quickly, this Saturday marks 7 months since surgery. I will be posting updated pictures Saturday evening so stay tuned.
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Every single day I experience something new. Something little. Something amazing. The importance of these little somethings would escape most people. Many of these little unexpected “new” happen at the most unexpected moments and when shared with friends can generate great laughter.
One such example: While working the Saturday Night shift I looked in the mirror while washing my hands and saw a dark smudge under my chin. I looked at several different angles and even attempted washing it off. It was at that moment, I realized it was a shadow. I have a shadow under my chin instead of another chin. (Shemane found this really funny).
Another example is today while walking to my car with my hand full of shopping bags and my purse on my shoulder I reached into my purse for my keys. I reached into my purse while it was still on my shoulder. I have seen other women do this before, its new for me. For that matter being able to carry a shoulder bag actually on my shoulder is also a new thing.
The hand-full of bags included two new pairs of scrubs. I couldn’t resist going back to get more. I like that I can wear scrubs daily even when I am not working the floor. I am a truly casual person and fully enjoy being in scrubs.
I am planning on doing my workout during my lunch time tomorrow so I can get home and tackle some of my homework. I have three assessments due in the next few days. I need the additional time to get things done on time.